Down to one more week already?

Oh summer, where have you gone...


      Unfortunately I didn't finish anywhere near as much as I had planned, but I really think I needed that break from everything. Earlier this summer I could barely finish a sketch and though I still don't feel 100% motivation-wise, It's gotten a whole lot better than it was.
     The same can be said about the emotional issues. Earlier this year, there was hardly a day I didn't wake up and immediately start crying for an hour or so. I'm not even entirely sure why this was the case. Whether it was college stress, one change after another, turning 20, not being able to find a job, fear of the unknown, I honestly don't know and I still don't know entirely but whatever it was, it continued through a large portion of may and came up every so often the next few months. I still often feel very down and discouraged, I know it's not a legit reason to be upset but, let's face it, we all get upset about shit, whether it be serious or not. Nevertheless, I'm trying to fight it off to the best of my abilities and with a heck of a lot of distractions and some very amazing friends, I think I've got it decently under control for the time being.

So that just leaves the subject of college. Honestly, I don't feel anything. I'm not particularly excited to go back but I'm not really upset either and the same can be said about starting my major. I don't know it just feels like stuff is happening and I'm just watching it happen. It's rather unnerving. I know the feeling will most likely change when I get back. I really did enjoy my first year and I feel I've improved at least a little bit so that's good. Another positive is the fact I'm not sharing a room with the living trash heap again. My roommate this year was one of my good friends last year. We're both in the same major and seem to have the same sense of cleanliness and personal space among other things. So I'm a bit happy for that and hoping it'll work out decently enough.

Once again, I really don't remember what I was going to say next so with that, (and apologies for all the downer journals lately) I leave you with this adorable man singing to chatroulette people


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